Everything is Connected
It’s been a tough week physically— last Saturday I ran 10 miles with Haley, Sunday was off, Monday was 6 downhill miles (tried to take it slower, but didn’t go too slow/as slow as I maybe should have), then Tuesday was a speed workout. I couldn’t even do the last interval at sprint speed– I just made it a cool down lap. It was brutal. My body just wasn’t recovering. I’m sure part of that is the heat (trying to do a speed workout outside at lunchtime in 80 something degree full sun was a crummy idea), but I think another part of it was emotional.
I think I’ve been more social in the past two weeks (a lot of dates, a lot of group hangouts) than I have in a really long time, and there are a lot of emotions attached to that: a lot of stimulation even by texting a bunch of people or being in large groups of friends, triggers from past trauma, seemingly constant acceptance and/or rejection from other people… it’s exhausting. (I wonder what it would look like to compare the quality of my runs on Strava to my social calendar, haha!)
Don’t get me wrong: I’ve been enjoying dating and meeting new people, and I LOVE my friend groups right now from my neighborhood. It’s just a lot for a woman who sometimes just turns the light off and watches Netflix mid-day to decompress, or who once chose to hike in a mild snow storm JUST TO BE ALONE. Hahaha
I’ve been thinking about how hard it was for me to recover physically this week, and also some comments from friends about their own physical ailments/heaviness this week. When I am being particularly mindful about how I am feeling physically, I can usually connect it to something emotionally, and if I’m not quite sure what that is, I reference Louise Hay’s You Can Heal Your Life, where she includes a reference chart of physical ailments and their emotional counterparts.
Here are some common ailments and their emotional counterparts:
-Throat problems: “The inability to speak up for one’s self. Swallowed anger. Stifled creativity. Refusal to change.”
-Shoulder aches: “[Shoulders] Represent our ability to carry out experiences in life joyously. We make life a burden by our attitude.”
-Stomach problems: “Dread. Fear of the new. Inability to assimilate the new.”
Note: Sometimes the connecting emotion doesn’t resonate with me, but recognizing that helps me be more aware of how I AM feeling emotionally, if that makes sense. It gives me a starting point for exploring the emotions I am feeling and how they could be connecting to how I’m physically feeling. So, check out the book because it’s SO good.
This awareness has allowed me to be more intentional about my interactions with others, better recognize and meet my wants/needs, and to try to find a bit more joy in my week/running 🙂