Last year an acquaintance of mine passed away, and it shook me more than I thought it would. (I wrote a long post processing my feelings then, but then it disappeared, so I figure it was something I was meant to keep to myself at the time. So here is part 2!). We had some different views on things, but I always, ALWAYS admired her light, warmth, and kindness. She comes to mind often, reminding me that life is so short. There are days that I’m scrolling through photos on my phone and I come across the couple we have together, or the screenshots I took from her Instagram stories (she was a nutritionist and posted some great information), and still can’t believe she’s gone. It’s just unreal.

We shared a passion for wellness, nutrition, and physical fitness. We both had experienced emotionally traumatic relationships, and had gone through our own experiences with betrayal trauma recovery. And, apparently our birthdays are less than a week apart—a week and a year!

Last Sunday was my birthday, and I celebrated by going to Portland to visit my brother and some close friends for the weekend. As I walked home from church that peaceful gray morning, I came across a “Poetry Post,” where a poem was posted for people to read by the sidewalk. The poem was “When Death Comes” by Mary Oliver.

“…And therefore I look upon everything

as a brotherhood and a sisterhood,

and I look upon time as no more than an idea,

and I consider eternity as another possibility,

and I think of each life as a flower, as common

as a field daisy, and as singular,

and each name a comfortable music in the mouth,

tending, as all music does, toward silence,

and each body a lion of courage, and something

precious to the earth.

When it’s over, I want to say all my life

I was a bride married to amazement.

I was the bridegroom, taking the world into my arms.

When it’s over, I don’t want to wonder

if I have made of my life something particular, and real.

I don’t want to find myself sighing and frightened,

or full of argument.

I don’t want to end up simply having visited this world.”

I cried then, and I cry now. Happy birthday, Amy. You continue to inspire me, and I hope to carry light, love, determination, and focus like you do.

What I’m Learning About My Body

   Monday to Saturday!

This week I bumped up my training quite a bit. I did double workouts on three days. I took one rest day. Work was also busier than usual this week, and so by the time I finished teaching yoga on Saturday morning, I was SPENT. I got some gluten/dairy/soy free donut holes from Sprouts, grabbed a Diet Hansen’s Cola, and turned on Netflix. And now I’m here, and feeling pretty pleased with my day so far. Haha!

So, how did I survive (and feel pretty dang good and just a bit tired) this week?

  1. On my second double-workout day, I went straight to Seven Serenity in Orem to use their bemer mat and infrared sauna. You’ve heard me talk about using the infrared sauna before (still love it!), but I’ve started using the bemer mat occasionally as well. According to the bemer website, “BEMER applications boost the blood flow, thus benefiting the body’s cardiac system, regenerative abilities and even mental acuity.”

  2. doTERRA Deep Blue Polyphenol Complex®. I’ve always ignored this because it’s pretty expensive, but I had to add more to my doTERRA order last month and I decided to throw it in my order out of curiosity. AND I LOVE IT. I don’t use it every day, but I’ve been using it after particularly hard workouts (or the next morning) and I really think it’s helped in my recovery. Truly. It’s the one thing I’ve changed/added to my recovery tools, and I’m really so surprised that I’m doing so well this week.

    I haven’t done a ton of research on what this softgel does, so I’m just going to paste exactly what the doTERRA website says about it: “Deep Blue Polyphenol Complex delivers polyphenol extracts of frankincense, turmeric, green tea, ginger, pomegranate, and grape seed, and is designed to provide soothing support to aching muscles and to other occasional discomfort. Frankincense extract shown to help support muscle and joint comfort and function. Includes proprietary, standardized extracts of ginger, curcumin, resveratrol, and other polyphenols to soothe occasional aches and discomfort. Contains the doTERRA Tummy Tamer blend of Peppermint, Ginger, and Caraway Seed.” (And then their standard disclaimer: “*These statements have not been evaluated by the Food and Drug Administration. This product is not intended to diagnose, treat, cure, or prevent any disease.”)

    At the wholesale cost, it’s about $1/softgel. But dang. Since I’m not using it every day (and since I technically got it for free this month), I’m converted and it’s something I’m going to keep using for a while.

And now, what I’m learning about my body through all of this.

  1. I’m adapting my training plans/goals to fit what feels right for me. It’s a pretty cool process. Even the disappointing workouts (like the run that I wasn’t able to finish this morning) are helping me learn what I PERSONALLY want to do, and how I want to train. It’s helping me learn my limits, and where I can push a little harder. I’m loving this process!

  2. I’m really enjoying moving in different ways by doing more cross training. This includes adding cycling to my running training. This allows me to work different muscles on different days (and letting muscles rest when needed).

  3. Hydrating and fueling is so important. Which I knew, but it’s still fun to continue to fine tune all of that according to my own individual body. Most importantly, I know I feel best when I avoid things that I’m sensitive to (duh, hello).

Above all—work (play?) hard, rest hard!

Finally, some words of inspiration for you:




(All from Instagram. Last one from Runners World!)